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Happy birthday to LeeCheng
Nothing to talk about for the party as I didn't really enjoy it much (sorry if I speak too striaght)
Anyway, yinn show me this drink of hers in can and I got it in 1.5l :) Win her. But this drink is very nice, I love it alot.
My gift for LeeCheng. I got this elmo on the 22 jan and I know that she wanted this elmo alot (fighting with me, in order to get this elmo). So as a friends of hers, I decided to give it on her birthday. I hope she will like it. I love this elmo alot too, but she will be a better owner then me.
I cut off all my damage hair and I swear my hair is now fucking short. I miss my long hair. Must be too free then I will go for a hair cut. But now, all the unhealthy and damage ends are gone. Have to wait for them to grow.
School has been fine this few days. Have been rushing my F&N coursework. Sometimes, I will sit in front of my laptop and think very hard. Why did I chose to undergo another year of stress. Sometimes only. But when I reached school and saw my friends. I know that my choice was right. But I miss Geraldine so much! Had been contacting much recently. Ask how was her life and etc.
So busy with my life. I didn't study at all when I got home. I think I have to draw up a time table to plan my time well. Will start studying at home once after Chinese New Year. The time to start! I just love the girls beside me now :)
PS: Sometimes, the friend that you knew for the longest might not be your listening ear. The friend that you think is your good friend, might just kill you from behind. The one who is is your "best" friend, is just a shell. The one who truly love you will be with you no matter what. So learn a lesson. Not much people in this world can be trusted. I trust you, you are the only one I trust.
I'm currently so busy with my studies. Totally gave in to O levels, it took away most of my time. F&N, I swear I'm going to fuck you up. This is the one that took up most of my time, do during lesson time and now, I have to do it at home. Luckily mum brought a laptop, so that I can do my coursework at home. As my desktop have no Microsoft office.
My target for my O levels
I had already think about it very carefully. The out-come of it is that....... I will continue my studies in secondary school. Although I MIGHT regret when I get back my O levels result but I still want to do my O levels. I want to try, I want to give in my best. I have to overcome the fear I have in my heart, I must do it. The main reason I'm not going ITE is because, I realize that if I apply now, I can't go to higher nitec. So what's the point of me going ITE and study nitec courses?
I had received my F&N coursework question and it's about food fads. I was struck when I'm doing half of my coursework today. I guess I have to draw up a little plan on what to do later. At least I will know what to do when time goes by.I know my english is weak but I will improve it. English is the killer out of all subjects to most O levels student. Agree with me?
O levels result release today. Now I finally know how different N and O levels are. Seeing the results they get, I'm starting to worry about my own result I will get next year. The gap is really different. I'm worry about my english, math, science, F&N and everything. Even the one that I think will do better, didn't do well. Can I really make it? I though of going ITE now. At least I can go into higher course then those normal one. I think that I have to really think about it.
Showing us how she play guitar
SHY?
So happy today :)
One of my teacher praise me in class today. Happy. Although it may be stupid but when a teacher praise me, I'm really happy. She was with me for 3 years but I know that she didn't really like me as I was not a good student in a lot of teachers eyes. She said that she was proud of me because my attitude change after I repeat my N level. I admit that in the past I was a very bad student but as I grow up, I realized that I gain nothing if I go against any teacher. Maybe I could said that I'm afraid to repeat my mistakes.
I may be stupid at times to say something that will hurt someone but I really didn't mean it. I'm really sorry. I always talk without thinking through my brains and I didn't know that my words will make people angry, unhappy or sad. I admit that I love to compare, it's because I take you as my model. I'm really really really sorry. I will change for the better.
Friends are getting results on monday. I wish you all good luck! O level, GO FOR IT.
First day of school
I forget everything that I learned and now I have to start all over again. Today when chem teacher teach us new things, I only understand when the lesson is ending. Looks like I really have to work hard for my science. Lesson will fully starts tomorrow. Got my timetable and it totally sucks. Ending school everyday at 2.20pm even friday when I end school at 1.45pm, have to wait till 2.20pm then the school gate will be open. I was like "WHAT THE FUCK". Just the start of the school then we have to do the stupid CIP. Taking tins and ask for donation from people. At least must have $20 inside, if lesser then that no CIP hours will be given. My group though of using our own money to get the amount but is each person $20 not one group. But if I use my own money, dam unhappy to see my $20 fly away and give to the school. What should I do?
So tired!!! Slp at 3am and wake up at 10am. Can't get to sleep anymore but I'm really tired. Whole body in pain now. But yesterday was fun, went to pub but I hate the 2nd hand smoke smell over there. I never like that smell.
Went teo heng to sing a 2 1/2 hr of ktv then head to pub near lavender. I really can't make it over 12am. Over that time, I feel so sleepy. Below are the neo prints taken on the first day of 2010.
LeeCHeng brought elmo out and he's having fun playing in bus.
The bus uncle scold him and he went back to his sit.
Happy New Year
Didn't go for any countdown as I think was kind of stupid to be with tons of people. Catch chipmunks at grand cathay, they are so lovely and cute.
Since it's a new year and I need to have a new plan for this year. I only have one plan, which is to get good grades for my O level. The only thing I'm going to work hard on.
Yesterday night saw the chal U show at 9.30pm, talking about a teenager feeling very unhappy about her body size. I was once like her but I'm not anymore now. Plus size does not mean ugly. Who says that plus size can't be pretty also? But sometimes I will meet some fucking idiots laughing at my size. I admit that I'm very hurt inside but after a while I'm alright. I don't know how did those idiots parents teach them.
When you are laughing at people weakness, will you put yourself in others shoes? What would you do if one day, the same thing happen to you? I once hate to look into the mirror, like what it says in the show. When I look into the mirror, I'm so unhappy with myself. Asking why am I plus size? Why can't I be the same as others girl, wearing tubes and nice clothes?
But now, I found a lot of nice plus size clothes. So if I meet those idiots again, I will not be hurt by these words as deeply as the past. I would be bluffing myself if I say I totally don't mind but at least it will not be so hurtful anymore.
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30/1/10
Saturday, January 30, 2010|0 note(s)
Happy birthday to LeeCheng
Nothing to talk about for the party as I didn't really enjoy it much (sorry if I speak too striaght)
Anyway, yinn show me this drink of hers in can and I got it in 1.5l :) Win her. But this drink is very nice, I love it alot.
My gift for LeeCheng. I got this elmo on the 22 jan and I know that she wanted this elmo alot (fighting with me, in order to get this elmo). So as a friends of hers, I decided to give it on her birthday. I hope she will like it. I love this elmo alot too, but she will be a better owner then me.
26/1/10
Tuesday, January 26, 2010|0 note(s)
I cut off all my damage hair and I swear my hair is now fucking short. I miss my long hair. Must be too free then I will go for a hair cut. But now, all the unhealthy and damage ends are gone. Have to wait for them to grow.
School has been fine this few days. Have been rushing my F&N coursework. Sometimes, I will sit in front of my laptop and think very hard. Why did I chose to undergo another year of stress. Sometimes only. But when I reached school and saw my friends. I know that my choice was right. But I miss Geraldine so much! Had been contacting much recently. Ask how was her life and etc.
So busy with my life. I didn't study at all when I got home. I think I have to draw up a time table to plan my time well. Will start studying at home once after Chinese New Year. The time to start! I just love the girls beside me now :)
PS: Sometimes, the friend that you knew for the longest might not be your listening ear. The friend that you think is your good friend, might just kill you from behind. The one who is is your "best" friend, is just a shell. The one who truly love you will be with you no matter what. So learn a lesson. Not much people in this world can be trusted. I trust you, you are the only one I trust.
20/1/10
Wednesday, January 20, 2010|0 note(s)
I'm currently so busy with my studies. Totally gave in to O levels, it took away most of my time. F&N, I swear I'm going to fuck you up. This is the one that took up most of my time, do during lesson time and now, I have to do it at home. Luckily mum brought a laptop, so that I can do my coursework at home. As my desktop have no Microsoft office.
My target for my O levels
- English-C5
- Maths-B3
- Chinese-A2
- CS-B4
- CH-B3
- F&N-B4
- Or ElMaB3 less than 20
14/1/10
Thursday, January 14, 2010|0 note(s)
I had already think about it very carefully. The out-come of it is that....... I will continue my studies in secondary school. Although I MIGHT regret when I get back my O levels result but I still want to do my O levels. I want to try, I want to give in my best. I have to overcome the fear I have in my heart, I must do it. The main reason I'm not going ITE is because, I realize that if I apply now, I can't go to higher nitec. So what's the point of me going ITE and study nitec courses?
I had received my F&N coursework question and it's about food fads. I was struck when I'm doing half of my coursework today. I guess I have to draw up a little plan on what to do later. At least I will know what to do when time goes by.I know my english is weak but I will improve it. English is the killer out of all subjects to most O levels student. Agree with me?
11/1/10
Monday, January 11, 2010|0 note(s)
O levels result release today. Now I finally know how different N and O levels are. Seeing the results they get, I'm starting to worry about my own result I will get next year. The gap is really different. I'm worry about my english, math, science, F&N and everything. Even the one that I think will do better, didn't do well. Can I really make it? I though of going ITE now. At least I can go into higher course then those normal one. I think that I have to really think about it.
Showing us how she play guitar
SHY?
7/1/10
Thursday, January 7, 2010|0 note(s)
So happy today :)
One of my teacher praise me in class today. Happy. Although it may be stupid but when a teacher praise me, I'm really happy. She was with me for 3 years but I know that she didn't really like me as I was not a good student in a lot of teachers eyes. She said that she was proud of me because my attitude change after I repeat my N level. I admit that in the past I was a very bad student but as I grow up, I realized that I gain nothing if I go against any teacher. Maybe I could said that I'm afraid to repeat my mistakes.
I may be stupid at times to say something that will hurt someone but I really didn't mean it. I'm really sorry. I always talk without thinking through my brains and I didn't know that my words will make people angry, unhappy or sad. I admit that I love to compare, it's because I take you as my model. I'm really really really sorry. I will change for the better.
Friends are getting results on monday. I wish you all good luck! O level, GO FOR IT.
4/1/10
Monday, January 4, 2010|0 note(s)
First day of school
I forget everything that I learned and now I have to start all over again. Today when chem teacher teach us new things, I only understand when the lesson is ending. Looks like I really have to work hard for my science. Lesson will fully starts tomorrow. Got my timetable and it totally sucks. Ending school everyday at 2.20pm even friday when I end school at 1.45pm, have to wait till 2.20pm then the school gate will be open. I was like "WHAT THE FUCK". Just the start of the school then we have to do the stupid CIP. Taking tins and ask for donation from people. At least must have $20 inside, if lesser then that no CIP hours will be given. My group though of using our own money to get the amount but is each person $20 not one group. But if I use my own money, dam unhappy to see my $20 fly away and give to the school. What should I do?
3/1/10
Sunday, January 3, 2010|0 note(s)
So tired!!! Slp at 3am and wake up at 10am. Can't get to sleep anymore but I'm really tired. Whole body in pain now. But yesterday was fun, went to pub but I hate the 2nd hand smoke smell over there. I never like that smell.
Went teo heng to sing a 2 1/2 hr of ktv then head to pub near lavender. I really can't make it over 12am. Over that time, I feel so sleepy. Below are the neo prints taken on the first day of 2010.
LeeCHeng brought elmo out and he's having fun playing in bus.
The bus uncle scold him and he went back to his sit.
1/1/10
Friday, January 1, 2010|0 note(s)
Happy New Year
Didn't go for any countdown as I think was kind of stupid to be with tons of people. Catch chipmunks at grand cathay, they are so lovely and cute.
Since it's a new year and I need to have a new plan for this year. I only have one plan, which is to get good grades for my O level. The only thing I'm going to work hard on.
Yesterday night saw the chal U show at 9.30pm, talking about a teenager feeling very unhappy about her body size. I was once like her but I'm not anymore now. Plus size does not mean ugly. Who says that plus size can't be pretty also? But sometimes I will meet some fucking idiots laughing at my size. I admit that I'm very hurt inside but after a while I'm alright. I don't know how did those idiots parents teach them.
When you are laughing at people weakness, will you put yourself in others shoes? What would you do if one day, the same thing happen to you? I once hate to look into the mirror, like what it says in the show. When I look into the mirror, I'm so unhappy with myself. Asking why am I plus size? Why can't I be the same as others girl, wearing tubes and nice clothes?
But now, I found a lot of nice plus size clothes. So if I meet those idiots again, I will not be hurt by these words as deeply as the past. I would be bluffing myself if I say I totally don't mind but at least it will not be so hurtful anymore.
