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I really miss the days when I'm out with my girls. My life is now so boring. I want to go out and have fun but I'm totally tie up by all the books.
I have been being a good girl. School then home. Finally realized how busy is sec5. But I can't do without studies. If we don't have a cert in Singapore, it will be very suffering when we grow up. So tired. It been ages since I last go out and enjoy, Even if I'm outside now, my heart will be thinking about my book and F&N coursework(killer of all). I want to enjoy my life, I want to have fun but everything will only come when I finish my O levels. Monday-CCA go home at 5++ and reach home about 6pm. Tue the only free day :) Wed-CCA Go home at 5++ and reach home about 6pm. Thu-extra English lesson end at 4.30 and reach home about 5++. Fri I will be asking my F&N teacher to open lan to do my coursework with me. See how busy I am? During the one week holiday in march, will be going back to school everyday expect for weekends. Which means, no holiday for me :) I'm go crazy. I really need a rest!
I swear that this "orange" is so funny
Alright. I will not talk about any of that things anymore. Just let it be what it will be. God will be there to see. Whose fault it is already does not matter. It's already about the kind of bonding we had left. It seems like nothing left anymore but I still have to move on.
I thank god that I still have them. Friends I promise you that I will try to be alright on wed but if I can't do so, pls forgive me. If I need someone to hug to and to cry to, pls lend me one of your shoulder.
The one whom I though was my best friends is not anymore.
The one whom I once trust so much is not the one who I can talk to anymore.
The one whom I love so much is now gone.
The one whom was my closest friend now seems so far apart.
The one whom I know more than half of my life time is now so unfamiliar to me.
The one whom others see as a happy, cheerful kityu might be gone.
Might be gone!
Not the warm kityu anymore. I'm freezing inside! Who can warm me up once again?
You all were once my close friends or I can say sisters. But now just because that all of us are in different school or even some are working make things change? No, that should not be the way. I treasure this friendship a lot but seems like I'm the only one playing a part. I feel so small in the group. I feel like nothing!
When I call or msg anyone of you. None of you will reply! Don't tell me that you are busy. Don't you even have a min to type your msg and reply me? What make things so hard? No reply is always the reply I get. Going MIA and suddenly come back. Just what the hell are you doing? I really don't get it. I don't care about any of the comment I will get but I just want to type out what I feel. I want to be true to myself.
I asked you. What do you plan to do after your O levels. I DON'T KNOW! I asked you, how was your appeal. NO REPLY! I began to think that our bonding are breaking. We were once so close but now not anymore. I hate this type of feeling. Prove me wrong, I hope that I was wrong. But everything seems so real, I can't say that it's false. Tell me, what do you want me to do? I will try my best to fit your bills.
Things are so easily broken. When we break it, they will never be the same as before. I realized that how foolish I was in the past. Having to be in that kind of environment, bluffing myself and blinding myself. I swear that I will never be the same as before. No way!
P.S:Dionis you are more gl then peifang la. You have to admit it. Stop bluffing yourself. Peifang I support you :) haha. Tiffany, I support you with your choice too! Don't care what others comment about you. Just do what you want to. They are just don't know about any thing. Go for it!
I missed school! Went to sleep at 9.15pm yesterday, hope to be better but it become worst. My throat is so pain now, dun feel like talking at all. It's not sore throat but just pain. Maybe I didn't drink water yesterday when I was shopping with friends. I don't want to missed school but I totally have no energy to go to school. The fever, cough, flu and throat are driving me crazy. So many people are down with flu nowadays. I hate to be sick. I had already been sick for 2 weeks. Hope my illness will be fully recover by Chinese New Year. Think that will have to neither clean the house or rush my F&N coursework later.
Was kind of happy because I finally found a lace top which I have been looking for. Alright, will stop here. Have to get back to my sleep. Please, illness get away from me!
Went to ktv with friends (amber. tiffany, eileen, peifang, dionis, joy and yijie). It's so cheap, only about 12 per person for 3 hours and a drink. If they have empty rooms, they will let us extent without any further charges. The system over there was also not bad.
After that, meimei came over to meet us and we went over to east coast park for our dinner. Had Japanese food and it totally sucks. Yesterday was also the first time I try fish spa. The feeling was so itchy at first but as time goes by the feeling is great. I can't stop laughing when I first put my legs and hand in. Tiffany who was sitting beside me, didn't put in her legs at all but still had to pay $10. So not worth lo. So the auntie gave her a bowl of ice to eat. She only put one of her hands in when I'm holding her hand. So funny.
Too bad that not all could stay overnight. Yijie and eileen can't as their parents didn't allow. We gossip about alot of things and we were like aunties. Girls are like this, if we were to live together, I'm sure the house will be upside down.
Stay overnight in tiffany house!
Me and eileen
Me, eileen and amber
Yijie, finally meet her.
Fish spa
Today was so fuck! Did my F&N coursework in school and I edit quite alot. In the end, I forget to save! Was like what the F. I have to think all over again. Damm angry with myself. Not in the mood to do coursework anymore for today. Think that will start tmr or what all over again!
School? Fine to me and now it's feb, totally have no mood for coursework and whatever. Only in the mood of Chinese New Year. Watched hi, my sweetie last ep. The last ep was nothing much as it only contain 4 parts.
From left to right
Cow-me
Frog-wk
Rabbit-Leecheng
Sheep-Yin
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28/2/10
Sunday, February 28, 2010|0 note(s)
I really miss the days when I'm out with my girls. My life is now so boring. I want to go out and have fun but I'm totally tie up by all the books.
- I miss the days when we take neo prints
- I miss the days when we all take photos in handicap toilet
- I miss the days when we all have fun
- I miss the days when we gossip
- I miss the days when we are eating steamboat
- I miss the days when we are planning for our next event
- I miss the days when we are talking about those R21 things
- I miss the days when we all go to school together
- I miss the days when we go for a nice movie
- I miss the days when we go for ktv
- I miss the days when we talk on phone
- I miss the days when we were together
- I miss the days when we were like a little kid
When I say I miss, I really do. Will be having camp the following week from wed to fri. No!!!
P/S: If I have to count down the days that we will be together, I would just let go. If I have to let go in order to be free, I will do so. If I have to blind myself in order to be with you, I would open both of my eyes big and not bluffing my heart. If I have to go though this to grow up; to be mature, I will recall all the lesson that you taught me and thank you for being my teacher. Despite all the pain that I will undergo, I will still do it. Because I believe, I will meet some one better than YOU. [ Just a random msg that I think of (:]
23/2/10
Tuesday, February 23, 2010|0 note(s)
I have been being a good girl. School then home. Finally realized how busy is sec5. But I can't do without studies. If we don't have a cert in Singapore, it will be very suffering when we grow up. So tired. It been ages since I last go out and enjoy, Even if I'm outside now, my heart will be thinking about my book and F&N coursework(killer of all). I want to enjoy my life, I want to have fun but everything will only come when I finish my O levels. Monday-CCA go home at 5++ and reach home about 6pm. Tue the only free day :) Wed-CCA Go home at 5++ and reach home about 6pm. Thu-extra English lesson end at 4.30 and reach home about 5++. Fri I will be asking my F&N teacher to open lan to do my coursework with me. See how busy I am? During the one week holiday in march, will be going back to school everyday expect for weekends. Which means, no holiday for me :) I'm go crazy. I really need a rest!
I swear that this "orange" is so funny
17/2/10
Wednesday, February 17, 2010|0 note(s)
Omg, I told myself that I have to start studying after chinese new year but I don't seems to be on the right track. I ask myself when am I going to start but I just don't have the mood to do so. Have to start asap. Yes that's what I going to do. So I have to control myself from using computer. The problem is that I just fall in love with down with love, can't stop watching it. This show is just as great as hi, my sweetie. The great thing is the the whole drama is up on internet. I heard it's the dvd one so might be a little different as they must have cut a bit out. Good for it Chee Kit Yu. I know you can do it :)
15/2/10
Monday, February 15, 2010|0 note(s)
Alright. I will not talk about any of that things anymore. Just let it be what it will be. God will be there to see. Whose fault it is already does not matter. It's already about the kind of bonding we had left. It seems like nothing left anymore but I still have to move on.
I thank god that I still have them. Friends I promise you that I will try to be alright on wed but if I can't do so, pls forgive me. If I need someone to hug to and to cry to, pls lend me one of your shoulder.
The one whom I though was my best friends is not anymore.
The one whom I once trust so much is not the one who I can talk to anymore.
The one whom I love so much is now gone.
The one whom was my closest friend now seems so far apart.
The one whom I know more than half of my life time is now so unfamiliar to me.
The one whom others see as a happy, cheerful kityu might be gone.
Might be gone!
Not the warm kityu anymore. I'm freezing inside! Who can warm me up once again?
13/2/10
Saturday, February 13, 2010|0 note(s)
You all were once my close friends or I can say sisters. But now just because that all of us are in different school or even some are working make things change? No, that should not be the way. I treasure this friendship a lot but seems like I'm the only one playing a part. I feel so small in the group. I feel like nothing!
When I call or msg anyone of you. None of you will reply! Don't tell me that you are busy. Don't you even have a min to type your msg and reply me? What make things so hard? No reply is always the reply I get. Going MIA and suddenly come back. Just what the hell are you doing? I really don't get it. I don't care about any of the comment I will get but I just want to type out what I feel. I want to be true to myself.
I asked you. What do you plan to do after your O levels. I DON'T KNOW! I asked you, how was your appeal. NO REPLY! I began to think that our bonding are breaking. We were once so close but now not anymore. I hate this type of feeling. Prove me wrong, I hope that I was wrong. But everything seems so real, I can't say that it's false. Tell me, what do you want me to do? I will try my best to fit your bills.
Things are so easily broken. When we break it, they will never be the same as before. I realized that how foolish I was in the past. Having to be in that kind of environment, bluffing myself and blinding myself. I swear that I will never be the same as before. No way!
P.S:Dionis you are more gl then peifang la. You have to admit it. Stop bluffing yourself. Peifang I support you :) haha. Tiffany, I support you with your choice too! Don't care what others comment about you. Just do what you want to. They are just don't know about any thing. Go for it!
9/2/10
Tuesday, February 9, 2010|0 note(s)
I missed school! Went to sleep at 9.15pm yesterday, hope to be better but it become worst. My throat is so pain now, dun feel like talking at all. It's not sore throat but just pain. Maybe I didn't drink water yesterday when I was shopping with friends. I don't want to missed school but I totally have no energy to go to school. The fever, cough, flu and throat are driving me crazy. So many people are down with flu nowadays. I hate to be sick. I had already been sick for 2 weeks. Hope my illness will be fully recover by Chinese New Year. Think that will have to neither clean the house or rush my F&N coursework later.
Was kind of happy because I finally found a lace top which I have been looking for. Alright, will stop here. Have to get back to my sleep. Please, illness get away from me!
6/2/10
Saturday, February 6, 2010|0 note(s)
Went to ktv with friends (amber. tiffany, eileen, peifang, dionis, joy and yijie). It's so cheap, only about 12 per person for 3 hours and a drink. If they have empty rooms, they will let us extent without any further charges. The system over there was also not bad.
After that, meimei came over to meet us and we went over to east coast park for our dinner. Had Japanese food and it totally sucks. Yesterday was also the first time I try fish spa. The feeling was so itchy at first but as time goes by the feeling is great. I can't stop laughing when I first put my legs and hand in. Tiffany who was sitting beside me, didn't put in her legs at all but still had to pay $10. So not worth lo. So the auntie gave her a bowl of ice to eat. She only put one of her hands in when I'm holding her hand. So funny.
Too bad that not all could stay overnight. Yijie and eileen can't as their parents didn't allow. We gossip about alot of things and we were like aunties. Girls are like this, if we were to live together, I'm sure the house will be upside down.
Stay overnight in tiffany house!
Me and eileen
Me, eileen and amber
Yijie, finally meet her.
Fish spa
3/2/10
Wednesday, February 3, 2010|0 note(s)
Today was so fuck! Did my F&N coursework in school and I edit quite alot. In the end, I forget to save! Was like what the F. I have to think all over again. Damm angry with myself. Not in the mood to do coursework anymore for today. Think that will start tmr or what all over again!
School? Fine to me and now it's feb, totally have no mood for coursework and whatever. Only in the mood of Chinese New Year. Watched hi, my sweetie last ep. The last ep was nothing much as it only contain 4 parts.
From left to right
Cow-me
Frog-wk
Rabbit-Leecheng
Sheep-Yin