✿Kityu's dairy✿
Back to normal :)
Well, i guess it's time for me to set my goals
To achieve by end of 2013
1st - Get my car license
2nd - Do well in my IIP
3rd - Travel to Taiwan or Bkk
4th - Have a memorable 21st birthday
5th - Live happily
6th - Have lots of money
不为失去而难过因为至少没错过。
但如果没有拥有又何来的失去?
哈哈,那不是没有失去?
可以了, 够了, 都不要管了啦。
不闻不问就是我能拥有的。
好想好想哦!
说什么,做什么都不重要了。
都没有在乎的了。

就是因为我相信所以才会失望。
我也怪不得其他人。
如果我不相信, 不抱有希望我可能就不会失望了。
我早就应该麻木的, 不是吗? 就是希望这东西害死人。
P.S:perhaps it's too strong to let go but it's too weak to do anything!
当我开始怀念以前, 我就知道我已不想要以后了。
不管发生什么事, 我都不想去面对。
我以后的日子还很长,会让我明白一切的。
那天我觉得家是我的避风港, 不管发生什么事我都不是孤独的。
因为它永远都会在这里, 不会离开我, 放弃我和抛下我。
人生里的人有很多, 真正关心或会留下的人少至又少。
我一定要习惯!
我不是一个容易把自己的心事说出口的人,可能是因为我没有什么可以相信的人。
Was reading the mrj confession and it made me miss secondary school so much.
Be it old mrj or the new campus, I ♥ both of them. still remember the first day of school, was very lucky to be in the same class as weiying and I remember clearly that we sat at the last parallel row.
me sitting the first seat and she just sat behind me.
That's secondary 1 and we were in class 1D.
I would always go school very late on the day whereby my PE lessons were held.
Going to school during recess time because I just hated PE lesson but for now, the lesson that I miss most is PE lesson.
skip school with leecheng and go watch the earliest movie available. Always go to weiying's or leecheng's house to sleep when we skip school.
Calling my friends when Mr Lai wanted to talk to my parents or when I early depart from school.
for the new school, that's the place where I retake my N level.
Also a new start for me, knew so many new friends. When I reach secondary 5, I will never forget that Mrs yong said that I'm the senior citizen of the class. Haha!
Of cause, I still remember my sitting arrangement of class 5B. Infront of me were deneng, behind me shawn and beside me Ryan. Tongshan was sitting 2 seats away from me and I will always go to her place and play.
All of my good friends were from secondary school times.
人心啊! 真是猜不透, 每一天都在变。
可能生活里有些事让自己不开心但不要后悔你做的每一个决定。
我呢? 一定有后悔自己的决定, 做法和选择但我不会让自己活在后悔中。
而是让我放开和离开。
对, 这是个很不负责任的行为但至少我过的开心一点。我讨厌不能说实话的地方, 讨厌不属于我的天地。
我不喜欢在我讨厌的东西里说我喜欢, 我要自己开心一点。
我把自己关在一个房间里,以为这就是我拥有的所有但我只要把门打开,我就能拥有的更多。
可能有好的就要把握,那对自己不好的,不管它有多诱人都要懂得放开。
因为只有这样才不会让自己痛苦!
不知不觉的, 我也活了二十年。
很快就要二十一岁了, 每一天的日子, 生活和故事都让我成长。
但我还是不知道我人身的目标是什么。
有时觉得自己好没用。
我的人生没有目标, 就像是天空没了彩红, 人生就是少了点什么。
可能很多人都会说我还年轻, 可是没有目标的日子真的好无聊。
多想我也可以有一个奋斗的目标, 这样我活的就有一点点意义。
这些日子我想了很多, 也慢慢的发现人都是孤独的躯体。
我们都是自私的!
原本我以为是我想要的, 都不是会让我觉得快乐了。
以前我很想拥有的东西也不想要了。
那以前和以后会有什么样的不同, 好想现在就知道。
有的时候还真想以前无忧无虑的童年。
想想每天都开开心心的玩,什么都不用操心。
可能我不想长大,因为长大后的责任变的好大好大哦。我都快要不能呼吸了!
So long since I last blogged
Been so long since I last blogged
Be it my open or private blog
Well, just log into my private blog and I realize that I've deleted everything that I've blogged since end of last year
Nearly forgotten that I did that
Wanted to log in and read what I've type but it's all gone
But isn't it good?
Let the past be in the past
I'm really very happy and satisfy with what I have right now
Well, I have to admit that life wasn't good to me during the past few months
But I got back everything when it's reaching the end of this year
Just look through all those Genting pictures and so many memories flow back
Well, although it many things happen during that trip, overall it's still a enjoyable one
Looking forward to go overseas with friends again
Perhaps on my 21st birthday
Since my IIP will end on the 24 Aug, I've time to go for a break
I hope my mum would allow me to go alone
Passed my BTT anf FTT, both 1 time KO
Gonna learn driving real soon
2012 is coming to an end
2 years spend in RP, gonna go for my IIP during March
Hopefully I will get into Singnex
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Still remember about a month ago, the time whereby I've let myself out
Thanks to that, I've wake up for the final time
Hahahahas, it isn't hard as I though
All I can say is that I had been stupid and fool
But some people out there just wouldn't get the facts right before speaking anything
I've no idea why you hate me so much, did I do something wrong?
Well, I didn't
All I hope that you would do is to get the facts right
If you don't know, ask the person involved in all this
I never once though of doing things behind anyone let alone doing something so bitchy
I've always support you no matter what, helping you to speak up when people say bad things about you
Saying that we don't know you well so we can't assume things about you
Be right back to blog soon :)
Happy 20th Birthday to myself
Celebrated my 20th birthday a few days back
2 big candles now which reminds me that I'm no longer a teen anymore
29th Aug (Actual day)
Celebrated with Lc, Yin, Bhh and Xy
Didn't stay for long because me and Lc had exam next day
So went back quite early
Got this VS wristlet from them and ang bao :)
Realize that I've been very into VS over the past few months
Reached home around 10plus and while studying for my exam
Eileen keep on Appsing me where am I and etc
In the end want me to go down to find her say what quarrel with .....
In the end gave me a mini surprise
Didn't allow me to go home early despite I've not studied
Thank you!
31st Aug
Headed down to club Weego aka Ratchada for my second round of celebration with meimei, Ts, Eileen and Dionis
We agree not to go up stage but in the end, they pull me up
We finish 1 bottle pretty fast despite only me, Ts and Eileen drink
They ordered a flaming lambo for me
First time drinking it and the taste sucks
But the killer wasn't this that got me tipsy
It's the 5 seconds
They pull me up to the stage and blow for 5 seconds
They wanted me to blow for 10 seconds but i didn't want
So in the end 5 seconds but they 5 seconds is like 10 seconds
They counted it dam slow
I know after that I'm a bit gone
Guess that I've gave them quite a shock cause it's the first time they see me being like this
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This woman happen to be going down, she's one of the gang who pull me up
The mini surprise cake and my most epic 'cake' I've in my 20 my years
The DIY cake!
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P.S: It's seriously over for everything, the first time that I tell myself and others so firmly that it's over. Thank you for showing your useless and fucked up side. It just reflect what type of person you are and I've wake up from my bubble dream :)
30/6/2012
This woman is finally 18!
Finally legal age to smoke, to drink
But you're still a little girl :)
She's one of my good friend that I've know in RP
Able to share everything with her, joke with her like crazy
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Got to update my blog more often but I'm just way too lazy to do it
Thursday went to celebrate Fion's birthday, an enjoyable night
Went Ratchada and head to Rebel after that
Actually though of going school the next day but I only reached home at 4+
So just forget it
But still went back to school for my last UTs
Went for exam when I'm hangover
The best part is that the paper totally scare me up
Difficult, no MCQ and the answers couldn't be find in the 6p or RR
Nevertheless, UT1 had already come to an end!
Rest for a week and the start of UT2 again
STRESS
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It's already the last day of June and half a year is gone
So many things happened in the past 6 months
Looking back at the past 6 months, I know that I had enjoy myself
Be it happy or not, it's over
I've learn how to wish for the best
Being able to accept changes and truth
Looking things that the brighter side
Let go of certain emotions
Overcome problems
Just gonna say goodbye to the past and hello to the future :)
16/6/2012
感謝妳記得我的生日 卻好像忘了為誰慶祝
那些唱片他可能喜歡 妳是否送錯禮物
妳問我要多少支蠟燭 還想要什麼樣的祝福
這蛋糕那麼甜 妳一定做得很辛苦
我就是愛妳傻乎乎 誰在乎
因為我們一樣的糊塗
介意不來 只有配合演出
所以我只能笑 不能哭
難得妳不覺得屈辱 陪我一起 品嚐這勉強的幸福
享受著他鍾情的音樂 欣賞著妳一臉的滿足
妳說我神情有點恍惚 我說聽得太投入
在這終身難忘的生日 不知道誰更銘心刻骨
我還真捨不得 結束這浪漫的錯誤
妳只是愛得傻乎乎 誰在乎
因為我們一樣的糊塗
介意不來 只有配合演出
不管多勉強只能笑 不能哭
難得妳還沒弄清楚 陪我一起 品嚐這勉強的幸福
27/5/2012
JB Trip!
Went to JB with Leecheng for a 2d1n super short getaway!
Just the two of us, honeymoon
Check in our hotel at 2 plus and put down our bags off to shopping
Staying there was dam shiok as we dont have to look at the time
If we are going back Sg on the same day, we had to pay attention to time
Shopped at KSL till it close!
First time shopped every shop in KSL
Watched movie - dark shadow and it's nice
Back to our hotel at 10plus rest for a while and off to eat loklok
Had been wanting to try this and I've got to say this, nothing much
Two girls walked from our hotel to the loklok place at around 12am
Somemore we didn't walk the main street because we wanted to save time
Rats were running beside us and i swear Malaysia rats are huge!
Actually wanted to go back in the next morning but we decide to stay till night time
So in the end, reach Sg at night!
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Mac's chicken fold over!
Why you no come back to Sg?
Loklok!
We brought back to our hotel and eat
Shiok ah
Ah mo and Carrot looking at Leecheng's kampong eggs
Sg sell so expensive
Titanium
Just one picture! :D
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Seriously, another accident happened at rochor road where the ferriari crashed
Friday night went out and happen to pass by there
The road is a MUST pass by for me when i cab home after drinking session
So scary, the same location and spot
Maybe try not to pass by the road
Went to Ratchada on Friday night and the air-con there is super cold
Saw the mango handsome mange
Wooos, I'm always hoping that he was there
Hahaha!
Reached home at 5plus and I'm wake for almost 24 hours
Should have gone home and sleep straight after school
At least wouldn't be so tired!
Holidays now and got to start studying
I aim for at least 3GPA this sem
AT LEAST
So got to make full use of this 2 weeks
Ahhh, suddenly miss going genting with those crazy people
Don't know when will we be able to go overseas again
Stupid mum! Just gonna wait for me to turn 21 and I'm so going to flight io BKK with friends
Just another 1 year, 3 months and 2 days
12/5/2012
So long since I last blog here
Had been super busy with school stuff and work
Totally no life!
But nevermind because I love to keep myself busy
My daily grade seriously gone
Had been getting Cs and Bs
Despite being tired, my attendance was full this week
Wake up everyday and have the motivation to skip school
16 - 19 no school due to graduation stuff
Just gonna self-holiday on 15 too
But that day will be having my FBM and we will be learning about wine
Also taste wine in class
Like fun!
Nevermind
Decided to go JB to stay for 2d1n with leecheng on tue
Thats why must give school a miss
Our honeymoon, just the two of us
Can't wait for it :)
28/4/2012
Once school started, forever so busy
Shopped at 313
Brought a maxi dress from F21
Realize that I always buy maxi dress but i only wear them for one time
I hope this wouldn't happen for this dress
Went home at 9pm to get change and go out again
Went to Mango yesterday and headed to party world after that
So sad!
Mango is moving
To some town area and I'm not going to visit them anymore
But nevermind cause I've decided to quit drinking
Finish up our balance at Mango with the three of us drinking 5s each and 5-10
After that walked to Party world
The first time I drank beer + V.S.O.P
and
It totally sucks
Went to newton market for our super
Reach home at around 4.30
Coma all the way to afternoon and off to work
22/4/2012

I love round round
School started and things are getting better as days goes by
Pretty busy with school and work
I swear that having 4 H modules not only the formal part
But also the 'no 1st break' rule
From 9.15am - 4pm, had been doing work non-stop
Couldn't find time to play fb games too, unlike the past
Lunch break, the queue is seriously horrible
At least I can sleep an hour more now compare to last year
Waiting for holidays to come :)
1 May!
Please come fast
Need a rest, need a get away, need to focus on my studies
You
15/4/2012

My 小萝卜王子♥
Working for straight 4 days!
And tue gonna start school
Timetable out!
4 days straight formal
Tue - Fri
How am I going to live like this?
Nevermind, just for 15 weeks!
Somehow feel that nothing's the same anymore
Everything got to move on
P/s: You changed me and now you're changing!
13/4/2012
Good that I'm blogging more now but short post!
Went bugis yesterday to watch the awakening
Don't understand the story, the same goes to Leecheng
But before that went shopping at bugis street
So long since I really look at their clothes
Brought a total of 4 clothes and I'm so happy
3 of it can actually be my formal wear to school
We brought a same rabbit tee and I say, lets wear to school together
Haha! Would be super stupid to be like that
Working full day today!
After work going Mango with the crazy clique
For our last gathering before all of our school start
I believe that all will be busy with their own things when school reopen
Tongshan will be busy with her work too
I forgot my mirror and I don't know how am I going to makeup later
Just have to use the small small mirror in my foundation
Seriously, I need a change in myself
Feel so sick and tired facing the same old me
Finally full makeup on wed
So long since my full makeup because so lazy to put fake lashes
12/4/2012
Changed my blogskin!
Like a finally after so many years
Actually didn't change mainly because qkl no help me
Never once change my own blogskin before so I tried to do it myself this time
Wanted something simple and plain
So I choose this
Somehow feel so bad towards my friends
I'm really sorry but please trust me, I will when I'm ready
There's far too much work for me to do
I don't know how long I'll need but I believe I can finish it one day
And
That's that day I will join you guys
In the end, went planet and it's boring
I'm in a thai club and they play english songs more than thai
Still prefer Mango because their thai songs
I want watch titanic
Watched their trailer and I love their song
*my heart will go on*
But the movie is a good 200mins which is equal to 3 hours & 20mins
11/4/2012
The Vow was nice!
Cried for a few times while watching
School gonna start in less than a week time
So I'm gonna enjoy myself to the max for this week
Glad that Leecheng went into the same school as me
The same goes to step, fion and elaine
More people will call me kityu in school now
Going titanium later!
Might be going club after our drinking session
Well, I guess it time for enjoyment!
21/3/2012
*Genting Trip*
First time going overseas with friends and it's really fun
Don't know when can I go back again with friends
Actually I thought of going overseas to celebrate my birthday but it happened to be on my exams days
Go on a short get away 4d3n genting trip
Departed on 7 March and return on the 10 March
While on the way return, the jam is really OMG
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Day 1!
Reach genting around 2.30 (first time so late)
Check in our hotel (first time staying in first world)
Wasn't that bad as I thought
Still alright
So we went to the museum and we actually spend most of our time playing 2 of the games
1st - Freeze shadow
Whereby our shadow will be freeze when the took our photo
So we came out with different, funny action
2nd - I don't know what is that call but it's like a tunnel and when we are inside, we will feel like the world is turning but actually only the wall is turning
After which went to watch movie, ghost rider II
Nice! First time watching 3D movie and I don't like it
First day was super tired because all of us didn't sleep the night before
I went Mango to drink till 2.30am and went home to get change, & etc
Meet them at haji lane at 4/5am
Only slept on the bus for like 2-3 hours
So all of us went back to the hotel at 8plus
Actually we just wanted to rest and have our dinner later
But all went to sleep!
Total of 3 nights there, 2 nights we actually didn't had our dinner
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Day 2!
Went down to KL
Took the skyway to 半山
Actually wanted to take a bus but the ticket office changed location
Super lazy to find so we ended up took a cab down
The cab uncle was nice
Allow them to smoke inside the cab
We actually spend 3 hours sitting down at the starbunks chatting
Thinking back, it's quite a waste
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Day 3!
The day whereby we didn't do must things!
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Day 4!
Back to Singapore :D
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PHOTOS














Bully my elmo :(

Catch-cha!

The man!!!


The super cold air-con that cannot be close!

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